Things to do when grief is concerned
1. Collect and stare at photographs of him until you can retrace every curve and bend of his face with eyes closed. Even if you have mastered this skill repeat daily.
2. Don’t buy a headstone for the grave. Procrastinate and ignore for as long as possible. Engraved stone is much too hard and cold. Remember the softness and warmth.
3. Erase his cell phone number out of your contacts but not before you copy it down onto paper. Dream about tattooing it onto your chest in beautiful fancy script.
4. Dust off old VHS tapes of his trips to Alaska just to see 1 minute of footage of him walking upright.
5. Get pregnant with a man child ASAP before death creeps and overtakes the entire plan. Pray the baby looks and acts like him. Give the child his middle name.
6. Wear his size 4X sweaters around the house. Never wash it. Swim in the ocean of fabric. Imagine he is at the shore waiting for you.
7. Make an appointment to have your head checked. Explain to the doctor that it feels like your right arm is missing. Apply for disability.
8. Roll your eyes in disbelief when you hear someone say God answers all prayers. You have proof to dispute this. You prayed over him for 7 days straight no sleep and lack of food couldn’t stop you. You are skeptical.
9. Feel bad and guilty about #8. Your daddy was a sanctified, Holy Ghost preaching pastor and a praying man.
10. Prepare to live the rest of your days wrestling grief. The end is just the beginning.
Revolution means change
It's coming
Bear DownIt's coming
Sharpen yo knives
Kiss yo babies
Grit yo teeth
Oil yo face with Vaseline
Braid yo hair
Gather stones and wood
Hide clean water
Stare at old photographs
Stretch yo limbs
Wear long sleeves
Remove jewerly
Say yo last prayers
Detox yo body
Stop lying
Research the facts
Smile at yo enemies
Reevaluate yo friends
Think quick on feet
Readjust yo thinking
It's coming
Yo!
Its already here
-Lady Terror
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